One thing I know...

posted on: Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Writer's block. Although I am not a writer. It's as if all the thoughts in my head have been sieved and what's left are the basic put-one-foot-in-front-of-the-other thoughts. I do wonder whether this is to do with it being month nine of not working and finally, maybe I have found my groove? Only thing is: it's a slow groove. I am thinking: is this passivity in me what I am really like and have I been living a 'busy' lie for all these years?! Or is it that it takes nine months to wind down? (much like that's how long it takes to wind up a pregnancy?!) The days seep by and I am not bothered although the housewife 'to do' list just keeps growing. One thing to note about the housewife to do list: there is ALOT of repetition.

1. Do the laundry.
2. Do the laundry again.

Somehow when life was interspersed by corporate meetings and coffee breaks at the office (never drank so much latte as in that job) the everyday things didn't seem so everyday. But I have to say that I am definitely not unhappy with this monotony; I just note it along with everything else I note. Brain still in overdrive (or else I wouldn't be me) but on different (smaller?) things. I am OK with that.

There is time for 8.30am yoga classes and to prepare myself an Ottolenghi salad for lunch (yes, lunch!). But somehow not time to call a plumber for a broken cistern. I see that I make time for what I like and have what borders on a complete mental block for things I like less. This is odd to me as before I just did everything without question. Now - when there is time for it to be done tomorrow if it's not done today - I find that some things just don't get done at all. They say if you want something done give it to a busy person, and never has that statement seemed more true to me. Interesting though; not bad.

Things I know, for sure:

1. You can never have too many lip balms.
2. I would like one of these Carolina Bucci bracelets in every colour.
3. It's worth the effort to take the physical exercise.
4. Do what you think is important.
5. Happiness has found me.
6. There are never enough shoes.


  1. You can never have too much lip balm or too many shoes. Never!

    Although my husband would strongly disagree.

  2. I can totally see a calmer you now.... However I hope you don't mind me saying that I hoped your not working in the conventional sense would bring more posts - there seem to be far fewer and you seem to have lost your spark .... Maybe abandoning the corporate world is not the nirvana I have always thought it would be... I do wish you peace in your new found freedom x

  3. No matter what the laundry is NEVER done! And it continues to be the bane of my existence. And yes, there can never be too many shoes....despite what my husband may think!

  4. I cannot believe that it has been 9 months already! I need lists and have become a professional procrastinator which was never in my DNA before Trevor so I blame him. I am glad that happiness has found you xo

  5. Think the commenter who thinks you have lost your spark is barmy. Your posts are fantastically truthful and always beautifully written. It takes courage and insight to dwell on the details of a life and you do it wonderfully well. Rachel

    1. Hi Rachel - thank you, that's really kind of you to say so! Much appreciated... L x

  6. Always never enough shoes and ALWAYS laundry to do Lou! And I would have to say I too disagree with A Hardy above - no spark lost as far as I can see - I don't think your blog is about how often you post either. Your writing is reflective, personal and truthful and thats why I keep coming back. Carry on as you are...and keep collecting lip balms! xxx

  7. Keep writing like you do honestly with emotion and feeling and so often I identify with what you write. I do think that this is a mundane part of the year and I so wish for summer so everything seems so boring, ironing, laundry and so fed up wearing winter clothes as the temperatures have dropped again. But I so agree I can never have enough shoes, lip glosses and also for me scarves. Have a fun weekend.